I just want to make one thing perfectly illuminated. No matter how strong I am and seem to others. It is painful and I wish I could turn back this clock a year ago and change the mistakes I have made and made amends with those I've hurt. I have had to really think about the reflections that are made on my part by who I decide to let into or back into my life. Please forgive me because right now this is something I have had to do in order to get myself back on track. Because it is my decision it is also my burden to bare now.
I am constantly amazed. I suppose this is what others want from me. I dug you out of every inch of my skin. Now you want to continue and even dare speak to me. Gather up the clues people, it's over do your thing and live your life while I live mine in a different circle. One where you cannot travel yet. Face it, we were only meant to be in each others lives for a short time and I defy all others to tame my mind. I instead thank you for the motivation to have crossed over. I bowed out and will not be in your show anymore. Paint your face and march forward, behind those you claim to not follow.
So now I am alone in one sense of the word. Where I've needed to be all along. Now my mind races, vering off course and back again in the blink of the eye. Now ask me if I'm damaged and I would say yes. Tell me that I'm better than that and I would laugh with the sting of unshed tears. Life is a journey with only two roads to follow and mine is quite narrow as I gather my remains and forge ahead. Preparing for the days of milk and honey dribbling off my fingers.
Okay, tell me since my soapbox in breaking apart. If you change, and be THAT girl, no pun on marlow thomas. Will they really be happy and why should we care so much? Are we so damn afraid that one thing will crumble the foundation? I guess it depends on the strength of the persons involved? :thumb102050550::thumb84294404::thumb94924393::thumb97167259::thumb76761404::thumb58434855::thumb90245101::thumb88404970::thumb97261823::thumb107237086::thumb68058850::thumb81396871::thumb100847194::thumb78062628::thumb104871382:
life can be disdain if you make it that way.....life is beautiful. even though my life right now is shit.......there are thousands of beautiful things in life.